Well, half of it's true. Seeing as I haven't updated my journal in over 2 years, this needed to fill that large text wall up top of my page. I'm alive haha, I'm doing alright, and I am slowly working on finding myself doing art. I actually sketched some small, quick headshot today. Kind of proud of that.

I'm finally applying for university! I need to send in some paperwork and then hope to Jebus that they want me. I'm not going to take no for an answer though. Things are looking up, I moved out of my house. I'm still working hard, not at Starbucks though, 3 times was enough for me.

And, yeah - I'm alive, it's okay

And I am still bored to tears sitting in Starbucks waiting to start working. I have looked at almost every webpage I would want to, sent out comments, read, listened to a bunch of music and I am tired, and I feel like I want to cry for no reason. BLAH! XD

I have not been able to laod any meager attempts at art on here as they went and changed the layout from when I last did - which could have been in like 2005 for all I know but I can't seem to get a preview image up and for the site to recognize it so I am avoiding it like the plague at the moment. Not that I have been doing much anyways

I started a small project of overhauling my laundry dumping zone of a living room into an actual living room - it used to be a pool table and junk. And I will have pics and I might make a website and stick them up there as I am too annoyed to bother trying to figure this out again. Unless you, the reader, have some tips for uploading on here!

And I am feeling better - the comfy chairs opened up and I am so there! I am being the uberleet Starbucks customer - on their wi-fi, drinking their drinks and loving being more snooty then anyone else in the place. I hate Starbucks for the fact people come in here like it means something and that they are someone for doing it. I just like the coffee - I don't think this place has some godly relevance in the day to day. *Please note I worked for Starbucks for nine months - there are some super sweet customers that come in*

ANYWAYS - I think I am done ranting for now so I am going to continue to surf the net and just so everyone knows - The Illusionist, Crank, Bandidas and ... I forgot are coming out today - the Illusionist was pretty good actually Oh the joys of working for a Video Store.

Okay... I love you and and I want you to know it. But there isn't a chance in hell I am looking at 480 pieces of art and reading 181 journals to get myself updated on the world as we all know it. Sorry kids! Anyways, I am spinning my wheels so I am hoping this month and this year will wreak some creative havoc so I can run amuck with a pencil and get something done. I have sketched a couple times and I am starting to use my tablet so here is to hoping to post something on here soon. The big plan is a painting by the end of March - 22x28 ish and an ode to surreal landscapes and my fav band. Right Now I am sitting in Starbucks on my Xmas present to myself - my cute lil laptop and I hope that now that I have all the tools that I could need with me that something will be done of it. If you can - give me a shout, take me out for coffee - I can buy! I dedicate my time to work and mindlessly sitting in my office. Really, it's kind of pathetic.

ANYWAYS! I am sucking battery power so I am going to jet. Mwuah! to you all and best of everything you could hope and wish for for this new year.

*Ben

Dear bloody God! I was on here last sometime before my poor little world imploded on me - Again. I worked diligently on graveyards at eBay and that ran my system into the dirt and beyond. Sat in my house most of the summer bound to a very glum attitude and the inability to do really anything. Sufficed to say - it was MISERABLE and I am finally working on getting myself back on track again. I haven't been doing too much else - had a bf and was dumped - thought I was depressed and realized that I was just STUCK.

SO I am unsticking, and BROKE AS FUCK and hating it.

I hope everyone out there still loves me Lol

I am sick AGAIN and so I needed some form of distraction.

1. YOUR PORN STAR NAME: (first pet and current street)
Puss (In Boots) Rawlison (NOTE: I live on a numbered street, Rawlison is the closest named one)

2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (grandfather/grandmother on your mother's side, your favorite candy)
Gerry Snickers

3. YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME: (first initial of first name, first two or three letters of your last name)
B-Ma

4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite animal, favorite color)
Cat Green

5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
Orin Langley

6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (first 3 letters of your last name, last 3 letters of mother's maiden name, first 3 letters of your pet's name)
MarNan-Rap

7. JEDI NAME: (middle name spelled backwards, your mom's maiden name spelled backwards)
Niro Nanahcub

8. SUPERHERO NAME: ("The", your favorite color, the automoblie you drive)
The Green Cutlass